Wednesday, November 30, 2005
Ever since secondary school..I have been lousy in relationship and stuff like that.. Got dumped twice during that period..And I always think that I am the only person suffering from it.. But I guess I was wrong.. It takes both hands to clap.. So yeah.. Maybe I am in the fault too.. And maybe.. Alot of fault in me.. Guess I know why I still can't get a gal... Cause God knows I don't deserve any.. Cause I ain't Mr Nice.. There are just too many flaws in me that I can't seem to list them out one by one.. I aint' gud in love matters.. I ain't good in handling gal's feelings.. I just ain't gud enuff..
Peeps out there.. Sorry alrighty.. You guys may always think that I am a gud guy.. But actually I ain't.. I am just horrible.. That is why I still can't get the gal I wan.. Hahahahaha.. I am dead serious.. It is only myself to blame for this kinda thing to happen.. Ever wonder why is it so right? I have answered all your doubts.. Cause is all myself to blame! Lolx.. Chill.. I ain't mad.. So don't worry(Haha..talking to my ownself..Lolx)..I have always tell myself that I will change and change for the better.. But I don't seem to have taken any step ahead in doing so.. I am just a big fat liar to my ownself.. I have gotta wake up......
I really want to change for the better.. I know my character sucks too.. Lots of people hate me I suppose.. But yeah.. Bad meaniez like me deserve it.. Who knows one day God will punish me?( Maybe I will get run down by a car soon?) I really hope that I get punished ya.. For the damn shit I have done.. Or maybe not done.. I just ain't the damn guy that can provide a gal with happiness.. No one will be xinfu with me.. I don't assure any damn soul any sense of security.. I just suck.. Oh my.. Me and my crap.. That's me i suppose.. A piece of crap.. Nobody have ever taken me serious and always thinks that I am just a joke.. Nothing is nice on me.. I should just wear shit.. I am pathetic.. Whatever the case.. I am just the pathetic shit that deserve to burn in hell.. Yeah..
I may seem to be that damn cheerful and stupid guy all the thing.. But yeah.. Is just a batch of lies.. I am just trying to put on a brave freaking front.. I ain't as cheerful as I seem to be.. Nobody knows how I feel in the inside( And basically I know I don't deserve anyone's care.. Cause I suck).. And yeah.. I know my english suck too..... That's just me.. A nobody who thinks that he is so great all the time.. I think I should cut out all this crap and be my real pathetic self.. I always feel like an outcast.. It seems that I don't belong anyway.. I always ask myself whether I make a difference anot.. And I think I do not.. I do not contribute in anywhere.. Cause I suck! Bear with me alright(If there is anyone else actually reading this other than myself).. Just wanna vent out my frustration.. All of them.. Haiz.. Sorry for this boring and aimless entry.. This is just me........................
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